Proverbs 4 - Read this today and thought it good to think on.

A Father's Wise Instruction

1 The proverbs of Solomon, son of David, king of Israel:

2 To know wisdom and instruction,

    to understand words of insight,

3 to receive instruction in wise dealing,

    in righteousness, justice, and equity;

4 to give prudence to the simple,

    knowledge and discretion to the youth—

5 Let the wise hear and increase in learning,

    and the one who understands obtain guidance,

6 to understand a proverb and a saying,

    the words of the wise and their riddles.

7 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge;

    fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Day 2 of getting back on track with healthy eating. Somehow managed to burn pre-cooked bacon in a pan... must be sleepy. So freakin' sore from working out last night I can barely walk today. That's a good thing right?

Oh and I just got a new gopro so I messed around with the timelapse feature. Here's how exciting my mornings are before work...

Fit to Father.


Am I?

What's it take?

What do I want my kids to see in me?

Am I leading my family the way Christ would have me to?

What physical, spiritual, and mental changes do I need to work on?


I guess this is just some of what's been going on in my head over the last 8 months since I found out I'm going to be a Dad. I've experienced the gamut of emotion - Fear, excitement, worry, anxiety, apathy, depression, absolute stoke and joy. As I try and process what it all means, I do realize I've tended to lose track of the main source for clarity and comfort - Jesus.

Jesus.

I don't know about you, but sometimes just saying his name makes me feel... all of the emotions I listed above at the same time. Because even after all these years, I still clearly don't have a full grasp on what true Grace is and how to fully accept it. However, I'm going to start trying.

I have to. I want my son to know it. To know deep in his heart that despite the imperfections of his earthly dad, he has an adopted Father far greater and wiser than I can ever hope to be.

I'm starting this blog I guess to try and document some of my struggles as I work through what becoming a father means.

Since being out of college, and in the real world of work, mortgages, bills, and life, I've battled my physical health. Growing up an athlete that put his body through more than its normal share of wear and tear, I now feel the break down of this body more and more each year. Busted up knees, shoulders, shin splints, tweaked neck and back...all wonderful gifts from years of wrestling, football, soccer, and who knows  what else. I'm currently on my 5th cycle of losing and then regaining 25-35 lbs (this time I've reached an all time high that I'm not ready to publicly display just yet.)

I guess I say that because I think a big part of this next season for me is going to be learning to take care of myself physically, spiritually and mentally, while making sure I prioritize my new son and beautiful wife.

So in the upcoming weeks I'm going to try and post more about what I'm doing to get healthy again, to the best of my ability. Track my progress, and try to enjoy doing it a little more. For now, this blog is private - but maybe I'll put it out there for everyone to read sooner or later.